Pain which will not fade till my death

Don’t know how to start but wanna share emotions which runs from extreme feelings of happiness to a pain which will not fade till my death.

Mid October 2020 a day which started normally suddenly turned anxious when my wife suddenly started complained of few sickness related to pregnancy. When we tested with kit it showed positive which gave us such an absolute happiness knowing we two will become three very soon. Every month we started visiting doctor and my wife underwent various tests and scans which indicated baby was absolutely fine and doing good. Monthly visits became half monthly visits again all the tests indicated that baby was doing very good. Half monthly visits became weekly visits and all the reports stated baby doing very good. June 13 my wife suddenly didn’t feel few movements when we went to hospital our worst nightmare occurred ultrasound didn’t show baby heart beat. His heart beat has stopped your baby is no more was the words from doctors. For a second just couldn’t even understand what was happening was praying God that this should be an awful dream was pinching myself. When these things happened my baby was 36 weeks. 2.4kg weight. 14th June when my wife was induced and baby removed and shown to me. She looked absolutely amazing. It was like she was sleeping. But on seeing my princess lifeless body Tears started rolling from my eyes which has not stopped till this second which will not stop till my death. When something positive happens we celebrate. When something negative happens we cry. and raise up again that’s the human spirit. Hopefully time will heal the pain. But my little prince’s memory and the Pain will not fade till my death. Love you so much my little princess. Daddy misses you see you soon my darling.